Question to ex-Christians. What do you believe after leaving Christianity?

This question interests me a lot, because there used to be a time when I tried to believe in Christian way, despite the things there that were against my own sense of ethics and understanding of G-d. Last summer I started comparing the claimed fulfillments of prophecies in Torah by New Testament and was surprised to find out that there are not a single convincing messiah prophecy fulfilment by the New Testament, but several deliberate mistranslations in "Old Testament" to make some lines there to look so. Instead many things in New Testament resemble the stories from surrounding pagan myths. Now that if Torah really is inspired word of G-d and therefore people of Israel His chosen people -- why it is so difficult for religious people accept that as an existing possibility, but instead gladly accept some later added story to deny that? Is the envy towards Israelites right to priesthood so strong that what ever story sounds better? I decided to cut off the New Testament from my bible.